Skeleton Woman

There is a myth I’d like to share with you (coincidentally on Halloween) called “The Skeleton Woman”. The story speaks to me as a wife and a mother – it is a love story, but also a story about awakening. I believe The Skeleton Woman represents our shadow side – the unsightly version of us that will be revealed at some point, or many points, during our lives, as part of our continual life/death cycle. We all have a light side and a dark side, and life has a way of placing a spotlight on our weaknesses (our life lessons) during the most difficult times. Of course, challenging times also have the capacity to reveal our great strength and character, but I think our real character becomes evident during our own rebirths and resilience – when we’re forced to look in the mirror and face that shadow side. And not only face it, but accept it, and eventually deal with it.

Here is the myth as told by Clarissa Pencola Estes, from her book, Women Who Run With the Wolves, copyright 1992.


She had done something of which her father disapproved, although no one any longer remembered what it was. But her father had dragged her to the cliffs and thrown her over and into the sea.
There, the fish ate her flesh away and plucked out her eyes. As she lay under the sea, her skeleton turned over and over in the currents.

One day a fisherman came fishing, well, in truth many came to this bay once. But this fisherman had drifted far from his home place and did not know that the local fisherman stayed away, saying this inlet was haunted. The fisherman’s hook drifted down through the water, and caught of all places, in the bones of Skeleton Woman’s rib cage.

The fisherman thought, “Oh, now I’ve really got a big one! Now I really have one!” In his mind he was thinking of how many people this great fish would feed, how long it would last, how long he might be free from the chore of hunting. And as he struggled with this great weight on the end of the hook, the sea was stirred to a thrashing froth, and his kayak bucked and shook, for she who was beneath struggled to disentangle herself. And the more she struggled, the more she tangled in the line. No matter what she did, she was inexorably dragged upward, tugged up by the bones of her own ribs.
The hunter had turned to scoop up his net, so he did not see her bald head rise above the waves, he did not see the little coral creatures glinting in the orbs of her skull, he did not see the crustaceans on her old ivory teeth.
When he turned back with his net, her entire body, such as it was, had come to the surface and was hanging from the tip of his kayak by her long front teeth.

“Agh!” cried the man, and his heart fell into his knees, his eyes hid in terror on the back of his head, and his ears blazed bright red. “Agh!” he screamed, and knocked her off the prow with his oar and began paddling like a demon toward shoreline. And not realizing she was tangled in his line, he was frightened all the more for she appeared to stand upon her toes while chasing him all the way to shore.

No matter which way he zigged his kayak, she stayed right behind, and her breath rolled over the water in clouds of steam, and her arms flailed out as though to snatch him down into the depths. “Agh!” he wailed as he ran aground. In one leap he was out of his kayak, clutching his fishing stick and running, and the coral white corpse of skeleton woman, still snagged in the fishing line, bumpety-bumped behind right after him. Over the rocks he ran, and she followed. Over the frozen tundra he ran, and she kept right up. Over the meat laid out to dry he ran, cracking it to pieces as his mukluks bore down.

Throughout it all she kept right up, in fact, she grabbed some of the frozen fish as she was dragged behind. This she began to eat, for she had not gorged in a long, long time. Finally, the man reached his snowhouse and dove right into the tunnel and on hands and knees scrabbled his way into the interior. Panting and sobbing he lay there in the dark, his heart a drum, a mighty drum. Safe at last, oh so safe, yes, safe thank the Gods, Raven, yes, thank Raven, yes, and all bountiful Sedna, safe… at…last. Imagine when he lit his whale oil lamp, there she – it – lay in a tumble upon his snow floor, one heel over her shoulder, one knee inside her rib cage, one foot over her elbow.

He could not say later what it was, perhaps the firelight softened her features, or the fact that he was a lonely man… but a feeling of some kindness came into his breathing, and slowly he reached out his grimy hands and using words softly like a mother to child, began to untangle her from the fishing line. “Oh, na, na, na.” First he untangled the toes, then the ankles. “Oh, na, na, na.” On and on he worked into the night, until dressing her in furs to keep her warm, Skeleton Woman’s bones were all in the order a human’s should be. He felt into his leather cuffs for his flint and used some of his hair to light a little more fire. He gazed at her from time to time as he oiled the precious wood of his fishing stick and rewound the gut line.

And she in the furs uttered not a word – she did not dare – lest this hunter take her out and throw her down to the rocks and break her bones to pieces utterly. The man became drowsy, slid under his sleeping skins, and soon was dreaming. And sometimes as humans sleep, you know, a tear escapes from the dreamer’s eye; we never know what sort of dream causes this, but we know it is either a dream of sadness or longing. And this is what happened to the man. Skeleton Woman saw the tear glisten in the firelight and she became suddenly soooo thirsty. She tinkled and clanked and crawled over to the sleeping man and put her mouth to his tear.

The single tear was like a river and she drank and drank and drank until her many-years-long thirst was slaked. While lying beside him, she reached inside the sleeping man and took out his heart, the mighty drum. She sat up and banged on both sides of it: Bom Bomm!…..Bom Bomm! As she drummed, she began to sing out “Flesh, flesh, flesh! Flesh, Flesh, Flesh!” And the more she sang, the more her body filled out with flesh. She sang for hair and good eyes and nice fat hands. She sang the divide between her legs, and breasts long enough to wrap for warmth, and all the things a woman needs. And when she was all done, she also sang the sleeping man’s clothes off and crept into his bed with him, skin against skin.

She returned the great drum, his heart, to his body, and that is how they awakened, wrapped one around the other, tangled from their night, in another way now, a good and lasting way. The people who cannot remember how she came to her first ill fortune say she and the fisherman went away and were consistently well fed by the creatures she had known in her life under water. The people say that it is true and that is all they know.


I often feel like The Skeleton Woman, dirty and unkempt, needy husband and children dangling from my limbs, and at the mercy of their yanking. I have spent many a day eating left over toast and mac and cheese from someone else’s plate. Why do I do this? Why do I feel the need to become a receptacle for others’ unwanted and discarded food? I have not showered – that would be indulgent. Instead, I have wrapped my hair up tightly in its bun, oily and snarled. I have rocked tired bodies, and sang sweet songs to restless minds.  I have healed wounds and soothed pains, with forced whispers and a calm voice, despite wanting to scream. I have closed my eyes, and tried to picture myself – my old self, or my true self? Now I don’t remember.

As I breathe life into my home and my family, my own life goes unnoticed, abandoned. Eventually, I sink down in the water – and let the waves have their way with me. I have given up, and I welcome the gentle rocking and occasional banging, because at least I am no longer in charge.

Whatever the woman did wrong, she most likely held herself captive at the bottom of the sea – too ashamed and scared to face her own shadow side. The man does not want to face her either – he knows a part of her has died, and the new life that is possible remains yet unseen.

So the lesson I take from the myth is not only about love between two people, but about awakening love for our own life/death cycles. It’s about acceptance of our evolving identities as women – about surrender and deep self-care.

Facing instead of running will lead to a beautiful untangling. As women, and as mothers, we are constantly recreating love and life – it is what we do, because it is who we are